what does sleep feel like?

i honestly do not know anymore.
these are some songs and random lyrics i've written lately.
enjoy.



where do my nights go as they fade into the morning light
why did all the dreams and stories leave my little head

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i wish i could move the stars,
i'd write you little words
to make the days seem not so long
oh, oh, oh
our nights would last forever
fireflies would dance around us
lighting our whole world
lets run away tonight
into the air, we'll lose our way
and never turn around
oh, oh oh
distant cries would call to us
come on,
fly back down
but no, oh, oh
we'd never turn around

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and just when i thought i had it all figured out,
every face in all the trees stand laughing at me.
as if im the only one
who doesn't know whats going on.
if thats so, i'd rather not care

i swear, i walk around,
there is no intelligence in those eyes
i am afraid to call you my own.

now get it back
dont ever lose it
dont let go
i fell in deeper then i ever meant to go
i saw it all
the end, of everything i've come to know and love in this world.

if you could see what i see now
you'd wish your mind could shut it out

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"Dear Mother"

dear mother let me tell you about my dreams last night
full of sound, color and full of light
full of wonders not yet heard of
they all seem to come from my own little head
tell me honest mother,
do you ever think i'll ever get to be the one i know i am to be inside?
because i cannot hide anymore
i'll tell you everything i learned last night

dear mother let me tell you about my day
climbed the clouds and played hide and seek with all the stars
tell me honest mother,
what comes after outer space?
mother i learned something important today
people can be mean and they can hurt
but so can i, so please dont lie
are we really meant to be so cruel?
i'll tell you everything i learned today

dear mother may all your days be filled
with exotic coffee blends
and conversations about art that have no end
a brisk walk to take your mind off of things
a perfect song to bring you back again
tell me honest mother,
is it monet, or manet that you like? i can never remember

dear mother i know now that everyone has to fall
and everytime i have your hand always fit in mine
and now i always keep my head up
because you taught me better then to give up
i'll tell you honest mother,
im not scared anymore

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you said, "come on wake up"
its such a perfect day
i cant believe you'd want to spend it, with your eyes shut so tight
tell me is it cold
where you've gone
i had a dream, there was a tree on a hill
im sure its still a secret
you climbed to the top
where the branches gently sway in the wind
trying desperatly to hold you up
and right before they break,
you jumped into the sky in your barefeet

imagine all the places we can go
when we are no longer tethered
cant we just crawl into each other again
im getting cold here without you
with so much left, why cant you see
that you cant go just yet

i said, "why cant i wake up"
i dont want to sleep anymore
someone has nailed me to this bed
the walls are stark white and empty with sorrow
why is it so cold
where i am
can you see this tree, its on a hill
that im sure is still a secret
i'll climb to the top and tell you what it's like
the wind feels amazing on my barefeet
i can see everything from here,
every thought, every star
even the one we fell from
i can feel the pulse of all that is beneath my feet
and i can see you
and i know not a reason why you feel so alone
i am right next to you,
your heartbeat my own

think of the places we've gone
now that we are no longer tethered
lets crawl into each other
with everything we are
cant you see that i haven't gone anywhere