i have grown up a lot in the past year and a half/two years. it amazes and scares me. but its also exciting. i think im finally getting passed "little joni" stage, and becoming the strong Levin/Van der Hoeven woman i am destined to be. finally!
people grow and change at different paces, and while we love the same in our hearts, our minds may stray. i love her with all my heart, but i need to become me, before we can become "us". i need to grow and experience life on my own, become independent and self-sufficient. if life finds a way to bring us back stronger, i welcome it with open arms. but i dont hold onto that hope as being my soul purpose in life. i need my dreams to happen first. then we will get to our dreams.
so what are my dreams? well more and more i've been dreaming in music, and seeing the world's patterns as a soundtrack. i want to tap into the energy it creates and shape it in my own hands. i need to get my guitar fixed though. i think i busted the truss rod in my acoustic...i really hope not. im going to clean out the basement and set up my studio and get cracking on my cd. i've got too much music in my head, time to get it out.
school is great. im so proud of myself for starting again. im ready for it this time.
new adventures are fun. i need to document them. photoing expedition anyone? hell yeah!
so theres this cute girl who smiled at me today while i was getting coffee at school. i've seen her before inbetween classes. theres another girl who comes into my work and gets beef sticks. i call her beef stick girl. i am very inventive with my naming process. i dig it.
i am not however, actively looking for anyone.
this is me time. gotta focus on getting back to me. but its still fun to flirt. im so cute. haha!
thank you to all who love and support me. you have no idea how much you mean to me. i cherish my life with you all.
good day.
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While I have been too focused on myself recently, I have also been thinking of you and your well-being. Hope that everything is okay, or that it will be, or that you are using your strength to make it so. You are so very strong and I have always admired that and your determination. Music is a huge part of who you are, so get things fixed and figure out how to make something you love work for you. I haven't figured that out yet, but it doesn't mean that I don't have plans. Sometimes when all is dark, it can be the plans, hopes, and dreams that keep us going. Love you.
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